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Nate Burrell’s Wife Mentioned in Tragic Suicide Note Nate Burrell left a very detailed and emotional final suicide note to his wife Jordan and many other people on his Facebook page.
According to TMZ, her sister confirmed that the star of the A&E documentary series “60 Days In” took her own life. The show is about people who voluntarily go to jail to show what it is like inside.
The tragic and heartbreaking suicide note can still be seen on Burrell’s Facebook page on November 1st. You can read it partially below, but be aware that it is very irritating.
This isn’t an admission of guilt. I’m just tired, I’ve been through so much in my life, the pain of my situation now…
Posted by Nateyboy Nateyboy on Saturday, October 31, 2020
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TMZ reported that Burrell committed suicide on Saturday night, October 31st. “He shot and killed himself in public places in downtown Allegan, Michigan,” his sister told the site. He was a military veteran.
According to TMZ, “He and his wife had a child on the way, but apparently he and his wife are separated.” His wife is pregnant with a baby boy with their first child.
His Facebook page says he “worked at 0311 1/7 Baker Company” and studied law enforcement at two community colleges. He was from Allegan, Michigan.
Most of the photos he posted with his suicide note show his wife and their wedding.
Nathan Burrell wrote on his LinkedIn page: “After graduating from Allegan High School, I served as an Infantry in the United States Marine Corps from 2006-2010. I did 2 Battle Rounds in Iraq in 2007-08 and 2008-09. Honorable Discharge in 2010. I worked as a Foreman in Bina Restoration A.Ş. In December 2014, I graduated from Rasmussen college with an Associate Degree in Criminal Justice and Law Practice. Now, Lanphear Tool Works Inc., which specializes in Solidworks CAD. I am a CAD designer for. I love hunting, fishing, hiking and camping outdoors. “
In the suicide note, Nate Burrell made a number of allegations against his wife. He wrote:
This isn’t an admission of guilt. I’m just tired, I’ve been through so much in my life, the pain of my situation now hurts more than I ever imagined. I can’t keep going on. I’m sorry Jordan I let you down. I have dreamed of the day I get to raise my son, but that was taken away from me. I can only imagine how bad this would all turn out, all of the legal crap that would ensue after this with custody and everything else. You win! You have promised for weeks, you will ruin my life and I had no idea who I was messing with. You are right, I didn’t know who I was messing with. You told me you wished I still wanted to kill myself a few weeks ago, and that has sat in my heart since. This isn’t a post to bash you but instead to lift you up.
I want to apologize to my family and friends for failing you. I know alot of you will think you could have changed my mind I ensure you, you wouldn’t. This isn’t a spontaneous thing. I had so much support through this and I am beyond grateful for everyone and everything you all have done. SO THANK YOU! But we all have our day, our time to go, most feel like we shouldn’t decide that but I’m here to tell you I’ve made that decision and as hard as it was I am happy with my decision. I’m done fighting the demons of my past, I’m done fighting the demons of today, and the demons of tomorrow. I hope my son gets to meet my friends and family and they can be apart of raising him. I pray that my family doesn’t resent ANYONE for my decisions. I know Jordan can be the best mom in the world and she will do an amazing job, I just need to remove myself from this picture to create a less complicated aspect of her raising him. I’ve said during every fight and argument to my family that Jordan is an amazing woman and even though people try to show me something else I see the real you Jordan. I’ve literally had some of the best times of my life with you Jordan you were truly my best friend.
The note then continued on to mention various other people in his life, including his mother. “Tamara MOM you have the most beautiful soul ever, thank you for protecting me as a child. Thank you for guiding me as a young adult. I am forever indebted for your many sacrifices you have made for all of your children and even the ones you have raised who aren’t yours,” he wrote. “I love you so much please be as much as a part of my sons life as you can. I know you and Jordan haven’t seen eye to eye on everything and you both need to raise above that hate and be there for him. I LOVE YOU MOM!”
He also wrote about his sister, his grandparents, childhood memories, his uncle, various friends, and even a childhood babysitter in the deeply personal message. We are choosing not to reprint all of those comments.
The suicide note concluded,
I finally get to join some of the friends that no longer walk this dark path that we have all fought for years. I’d also like to mention the behavioral health side of our nation needs to be revamped and funded in a way its never seen. Our military and their families need it. I checked myself into the hospital for wanting to commit suicide and from the beginning I felt like a criminal going to jail. Stripped of my dignity and identity and personal property. I needed my family and friends during this time and you took that away. Not being able to communicate put me in such a darker hole than I was in originally that was so hard on me mentally. I would have told you anything to get me out of that place even if it meant I was okay when I wasn’t. You didn’t help me you held me prisoner so I couldn’t hurt myself? You need a better system America. This is the reason veterans and our military are killing themselves at such a high rate. They arent getting the treatment they need when they reach out for help they go to a place like I went. And as I told the doctors there I would kill myself before coming back to a place like this. You should be ashamed of yourselves. All I wanted was help, I sought you and you treated me like an animal.
For those who want to celebrate this day as a victory, enjoy it. I know alot of people hate me and that’s just what its going to be. I won’t change your minds. I hope you understand I’m sorry for hurting anyone in my life. And I hope you find it in your hearts to forgive me, I wasn’t a horrible person, I may have said or have done a few things to make you feel that way but I tried living my life as good as I could. I slipped up I created voids where voids didn’t need to be. None of us are perfect and none of us should cast judgment onto another person without knowing the complete story. I hope you all know I love you, every last one of you! I’m truly sorry from the bottom of my heart.
For those who are mourning know I’m in such a better place. I’m no longer fighting the battles that have been causing so much pain in my mind and life. Waking up feeling worthless, lost, confused, and tired/exhausted. I know you all have told me thats not who I am and I’m talented and have a good head on my shoulders, I appreciate you, but it doesn’t help how I feel. I’m so lost and really can’t see any light at the end of the tunnel. Since I’ve been out of the Marines I struggle with alot of aspects of reality, I struggle with sleep, feeling comfortable around people, going out in gatherings, focusing, memory issues. We have been told we are weak if we seek medical help in the military. It becomes a pride thing because you are afraid to be viewed as weak. I take my last breaths I hope you know I think about every single person that has came into my life. I tried my best! Please if you guys have a celebration of life or service for me, let everyone who wants to be there be there. Don’t stop Jordan or anyone else from being there if they want to. I ask from the bottom of my heart that you honor this. It isn’t her fault or anyone else’s fault that I made this decision. I pray that God puts peace on all of your hearts and minds. This day should be a day of everyone coming together and comforting everyone. I love you all.
Jordan you are going to do better raising our son without me than with me. I don’t hate you I’m not upset or mad, I’m sad, why did it have to turn out like this?! You’re such a beautiful person and can be the most loving person ever. Please move forward with your life with respecting yourself, loving yourself, you aren’t impossible to love, all of those things you and I have talked about are not you! You are such a fun person to be around, just keep your head up. I’m not there physically but I hope to always be there in the back of your mind, giving you the advice you need, when you are down. I hope to motivate you in the way I would when you would call me and ask me to help you. I told you regardless of our marital status I would love you and I hope you know that I still love you. My best day I’ve experienced so far was our wedding day. Our song is literally the perfect representation of that day. I just wonder if things would have went differently how would we have ended up. Just so you know you have been my favorite memory. If you don’t get my letters that I wrote to our son and you I’m sorry. I tried giving you closure. I feel like life would never have felt complete without meeting you, I wish our relationship would have went a different way but it didn’t. I’m a better person for knowing you. I LOVE YOU Heartbeat ❤❤💔.
The note continued,
Let our lives not be defined by our mistakes but instead our hearts.
A few bible verses for you to remember during this time:
Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my Soul to keep[;]
If I should die before I ‘wake,
I pray the Lord my Soul to take.
For if we live, we live to the Lord, and if we die, we die to the Lord. So then, whether we live or whether we die, we are the Lord’s.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.
Again- if you or a loved one is struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts, please reach out to the hotline at the top of this page.